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Week ending Sunday, September 28th, 2014
Week 5...7 more to go....
So here is something I thought about hard this week:

* Jesus dined with sinners.
* I dine with sinners.
* Who needs repentance more? Those of the faith or those without faith?

I am judged so often by people who are non-believers as being "Not a true Christian". If you're not a Christian, if you do not believe that Christ died for your sins, how can you be an accurate judge of me or my faith? If Jesus had the where-withal to understand that those who are in the deepest need of help and repentance were sinners, why would he not sit among those people and mentor and educate them?! No, I do not sit with prostitutes but if I ever come across one, you know I am going to mentor them and let them know about Christ.

They do not want to do what they are doing. You know that, I know that. So I do my best to mentor to others -- to try and help them move forward with their relationship with God. Am I perfect? Heck no. I have my own multitude of faults. However, the one thing I do have is a relationship with my Lord and Savior. I often find myself asking for forgiveness more times than I should ever have to. We stumble. We fall. But Jesus is just to forgive up, pick us up, dust us off and send us on our way. Those who are non-believers who constantly criticize us, you don't bother me because you do not understand what my faith is in. There was only One who was ever perfect and He was the one who opened the gate to God -- directly!

Ok that's enough of my own "Sermon on the Mount" haha. Things are progressing and I've already turned down a few jobs. I have two things that should pan out next week. Then I have a choice to make. Stay in San Diego or move back to Florida. You already know that my home is HERE, not in Florida, even though my family is back home in Florida. I fly there once a year to see them but that doesn't mean it's my first place I think of if I want to move. Well that is not fair. I do expect to move there eventually when I want to retire but in the meantime I want to continue to enjoy living in the closest thing to paradise there is: SAN DIEGO!!!

Honestly that is it for this week. I have a few things to do with the work goals I have planned. I have some Buccaneer (sadly) football to watch, then MotoGP then I need to do my own chores. By the way, Church was awesome again last night and I am learning not to be so mean to teenagers who are chatting away in front of me while I am trying to listen. This time, I just got up and moved :) Maybe I am becoming kindler/gentler? Who knows!!! Haha.

Have a great week!

Week ending Sunday, September 21th, 2014
Week 4....
Same as it ever was, same as it ever was, same as it ever was. Sorry, all apologies to "The Talking Heads" on that analogy but, it isn't exactly always the same. Things are looking positive. I have some serious coals in the fire and I think I should have something positive by the end of the week. By the I mean by the end of September. It will also be the next fiscal year for a lot of companies so that helps at the start of October.

Options? Stay here and work from home (#1). Leave and move to Orlando (#2). Leave and move to NC (#3). One is the primary obviously. And I will probably move back to Florida at some point but NOTHING beats the lifestyle in San Diego. So I will stay here as long as God places that thought on my heart and mind. When it's time to go -- it's time to go. The Lord speaks to us all differently and I listen intently for His next move.

Honestly, that is IT! I don't want to talk about the Bucs 0-3 start (c'mon, man!). I don't want to talk about how much work it is to look for a new job. I don't want to talk about not really having a vacation. The one thing I will tell you is that I do NOT worry. God has great plans for those who seek Him out and trust in Him and I do.

I hope you had a great week and I will check in when I have more info.

Love you all!


Week ending Sunday, September 14th, 2014
Technically I'm on week 3....
Now that I think about it, I am ending week 3 and starting week 4. Ugh. Well the good thing is that I have some options to look at. A couple of them right now do not look too appealing because in both cases, I have to move. Honestly, if I can keep from moving I'd be a lot happier than having to pick up and move somewhere that I do not know anyone. And what if I go back to the same company, they move me and I end up having the same thing happen? Then I am out of a job again in a city I don't want to be in. We shall see.

Resume has been flying all over the place. Had a lot of interviews so far. Some I did well on and a couple I think I bombed pretty hard on. I have to keep reminding myself not to over think the question and actually just give them the simple answer they are looking for. So it's back to my other "day" job and back to interviews and flying resumes. I honestly don't think anything will solidify until after Oct 1st. Then I am going to actually TAKE A VACATION!!!

Church -- awesome as ever and Pastor Bob was right on point with what I needed to hear. Who "do" we actually lean on in good AND bad times? I tell you, I lean on God very much when times are hard, but when times are good, very good, I am quick to give Him all the praise and glory. For without Him, I would be no one. Without Him, life itself is meaningless. That's why I can embrace staying single because His purpose is far more than my own devices.

That's it for this week. Short blog updates until I am back on solid ground. And I will be, because I know He will take care of me. Whatever path His places before me, I will follow.


PS: Grats to Valentino!!! (Spoiler) and Bucs -- start WINNING!

Week ending Sunday, September 7th, 2014
First full week of bordom. Need to get back to work!
Not much to say this week. I am in a "not so happy mood" having my first full week of being unemployed. There were a couple of interviews last week. One went well but the job has been put on hold until next year. The other one, I don't think I did so well and it would require me to relocate. That is not my first choice of course.

All I can do right now is keep my resume out there, keep calling and emailing people and if possible, I can find some short term contract work to keep the bills paid for now. Well that and what I have been doing and continue to do all the time is just lay everything at God's feet and let Him have control. I find that often when I step away from Him I find myself in bad positions like this one.

I'll continue to hold my faith. I have a little bit of time but I am not good at sitting on my hands. Patience is something I have always had difficulty with so that as well is taking some time to adjust.

Church was awesome this weekend (as always) and it's good to know my Church is keeping in their prayers. Even Pastor Roger said "Good to see you with a smile on your face despite the circumstances". Of course! I know Who is in control and that is not me.

That's all I really want to talk about this week. Not about the Bucs loss or the huge Gator win. Nice to watch some football but it hasn't gotten rid of these headaches. I can't wait for the weather to cool down and a new job to come along so I can be a productive member of society once again.

Hope you had a great weekend and if you don't see any posts on FB, check here next Sunday for status updates.



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