FOR NOVEMBER 2008
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3 | WEEK 4 and 5
ending November 30th 2008
BAAAAAACK! Miss me? Muahaha!
had an excellent vacation and Thanksgiving and hope you did
as well. Now where do I start? Well, I flew out of San Diego
on Thursday. I had a layover in Charlotte, NC. On the ride
there I met a Frenchman who has been living in the US for
about 20 years. It turns out that his wife is a Christian
but he is not. He has been struggling for years to commit
his life. We had a lengthy discussion but really this is a
decision he has to make on his own. I can't convict him, only
the Holy Spirit can do that. In the end we decided to stay
in touch and that I would be willing to answer any questions
he might have.
the long flight I arrived in Orlando around midnight. After
waiting for what seemed like forever to get my bags and rental
car I hit the road. I arrived home at around 2:30 in the morning
and got some shut eye. The next morning we got up, ate, chatted
a bit and then I met Robert (my best bud from home) and we
hit the golf course. We caught up a lot on each other's lives
and then parted. We didn't get to hang out much as his wife
was having a surgery and really they just needed some peace
and quiet. After that we all went to dinner then hung out
at my sister's place.
next day I went with my nieces to one of their meets and that
was fun. Later that night I met up with a friend at the Roadhouse
and we did some Karaoke (told ya!). It was really, really
good to meet up with her. We hadn't talked in 25 years! That
really meant a lot to me and to her, I believe. On Sunday
I went to Church with my nieces and nephew then we BBQ'd and
I took them to the movies. Monday we didn't really do that
much. On Tuesday my family arrived from Boston as did my niece
from SLO. Wednesday I met up with Jennifer's mom then we all
went out that night. I had a lot of fun catching up with so
many people I have not seen in years. Everyone thinks I still
look the same, just taller. They all look much different to
me. Grown ups :)
was a very busy day being Thanksgiving. We cooked so much
food it was really more than we all could eat. We had a couple
of Turkeys and a ham as well. We also got together to take
some family photos and I'll be adding them soon. Before I
knew it, it was Saturday AM and time to go. We all said our
goodbyes then I dropped by to see Jenn before I left. It was
really, really good to catch up with her and see how her life
has progressed. I'm really proud of her.
flight home was a trip (literally!). The ride to Dallas was
as bumpy as I could remember. In fact, we hit so much turbulence
that there were several screams. I know a couple times I was
gripping the seat pretty tightly! I've had some rough rides
in my time but that one took the cake. The leg from Dallas
to S.D. was relatively smooth. My bags even beat me to the
airport (lol). I ended up getting home late and very, very
it was a great trip and a much needed vacation. I haven't
been to the gym now in almost 2 weeks so it'll be good to
get back tomorrow and into my regular routine. I'm even looking
forward to getting back to work and into the grind. There
were some excellent times and definitely some things to think
about. We'll see what happens. :)
about it for now. Once again I hope you had a great Holiday
and I'll check back in with you next week. Don't forget to
come back later and check for pictures.
you soon! :)
ending November 16th 2008
a good week? I did :)
week I am headed to Florida for vacation with my family. I'm
really looking forward to spending Thanksgiving with them.
I can't remember the last time we all got together for a Holiday
so this is long overdue. We even have family coming from Boston
and I think Alabama. My niece is also coming from SLO. She
is a student at Cal Poly.
be gone roughly 10 days so that means I will not be updating
the blog next Sunday. In fact, I still have several things
to take care of before I leave. I'm also going to miss the
gym for two weeks. As much as love it, I really need the break.
Besides I should be getting in a ton of golf while I am there
and hopefully some fishing and swimming too! At some point
we're going to head to Tampa and hit the Hard Rock. I'm sure
we'll all be on our best behavior ;)
wise things are going OK. We had a lot of vendor demos this
week so that threw my schedule off. We also had Tuesday off
for Veteran's Day which was neat. It's really weird having
a day off in the middle of the week like that, but I made
good use of it.
weekend overall was fairly busy and Church was great, as always.
I forgot to mention, after last week's rant, that they called
all the Veteran's to stand and about 15 of us did and they
gave us all a round of applause for our service. I thought
there would be more Military and prior Military at Horizons
given that we do try and get them active. Maybe that's a Ministry
opening I should be tapping? Big hint, huh?
trying to think if there is anything I missed but I think
that about covers it. I really, really appreciate all the
kind words about what I posted last week. Trust me, I am fine.
I just needed to vent and the totally off-kilter behavior
that some people display never ceases to amaze me.
really about it. I'll have lots to post about when I get back
from my trip. And if you're in Sebring and reading this, I'll
see you on the 21st (traveling all day on the 20th). Let's
get together because I know you guys are wanting to blow up
the speakers doing karaoke. HAHA! :)
I forget, rest in peace mom.....we still miss you.
you all back here in two weeks!
ending November 9th 2008
week's blog is going to be a rant. Haven't done one for a
while and this is long overdue:
are certain individuals that are no longer part of my life
for whatever reason. Whether they chose it to be or I did
doesn't really matter. I respect their choice, they should
respect mine. There is one particular person whom I will not
mention by name that is not in my life anymore and this rant
is about them.
at my age I should have known better and just avoided the
whole situation. The lack of maturity on their part was a
huge warning sign. What this person was telling me were things
that aren't usually associated with conflicted feelings and
more than anything, things you just don't say to someone unless
you mean it. Their actions never followed their words and
that was the biggest warning sign. Against my better judgment
I decided to trust that God put this person in my life for
a reason. Well in the end, it turns out He did...to teach
me another lesson in life.
to the warning signs and red flags!
this person, whom I don't wish any harm but also don't desire
any interaction with anymore either, has been trying to re-establish
a friendship -- even after being told time and time again
that I do not want them in my life in any capacity. I'm sorry,
but that is just not possible. I don't care if this person
is insecure, needy or didn't believe me. My actions and my
words NEVER conflict with each other. I say what I mean, I
mean what I say. It's not my problem they didn't believe me.
They made a conscious decision and did so at the cost of losing
every good thing that comes with being very
close to me. It's too late for regrets. They should have considered
the consequences back then.
sheer audacity of this person given all the crap they brought
into my life -- to just expect me to welcome them back into
my life with open arms -- there is just no way. It's never
going to happen, ever! I've never been anyone's door mat and
I will not accept being treated as if I am somehow "disposable."
I was not put on this planet to meet anyone else's needs,
especially at my own expense. On top of this, all this person
ever says is "I want, I need..." with no regard
to anyone but themselves. What they are saying is "I
only want/need what you can provide me..." They are completely
selfish and self-centered.
define the word "succubus..."
we make decisions in our lives we end up regretting. I've
made a few myself. But instead of trying to fill whatever
void this person left in my life by being insincere, by not
apologizing and by trying to manipulate them back into my
life, I JUST LET THEM GO. There is no need to stir up the
past. What is done can not be undone. When you make a decision
to walk away, there are no second chances with me. I hate
to say it's karma, but that's really what it comes down to.
You can't go through life taking advantage of people and not
expect it to come back and bite you.
gone through some painstaking efforts to keep this person
out of my life yet they still persist. I am upset more than
anything that a clear boundary has been laid
(more than once) and this person continues to push, poke and
prod to try and find a loophole somewhere. I've respected
this person's decision to move on with their life and I fully
expect them to respect my decision to no longer include them
in mine. To have a relationship, both people have to want
it and if one doesn't then well -- there is no
says we must forgive others and I have -- but He never said
we had to forget or that we are to continue to allow people
into our lives who are simply toxic for us. In that case Jesus
said clearly "Wipe the dust of your sandals as you leave"
and that us exactly what I have done. I walked away with no
guilt, with my dignity, pride and confidence fully in tact.
Can't say the same for them.
I sit here and write this I am watching the "MetalliBash
2002" video that I found in my collection. I found a
bunch of old tapes and didn't know what was on them. I had
forgotten how good we were back then and that was a fantastic
show -- and one of my last as I left the band a few months
after that gig. I'll see if I can get it converted to digital
format and place it the on site. That will be something I
am sure you'll enjoy as much as I have :)
it for now. Writing the blog is often times cathartic for
me. Over the past several years I've learned that keeping
my feelings locked up inside and not sharing them often with
others is a good thing. Sometimes it's better to keep them
wondering. This was just a situation where I needed to vent.
I hit a level where they've annoyed me to the point I needed
to vent somewhere. It's a good thing I don't have the race
bike anymore or I'd probably smash my lap times...
not sure I should say "I hope you enjoyed this"
or not. Perhaps instead I should just say "thank you
for listening..." :)
a good week.
ending November 2nd 2008
was your week? Mine was fantastic!
of this week was pretty darn busy at work. I've got so many
projects going on at one time it sometimes gets difficult
to keep them in order. I am sure the team leads would agree,
lol. Otherwise though, things are good. I really enjoy the
troubleshooting aspect of my job and that's what I get to
do a lot of.
friend John got married yesterday in San Clemente. It was
really fantastic. My original date couldn't make it so at
the last minute my friend Jennifer came with me. She's such
cool peeps and it was really fun to hang out. We both had
a really good time. They had a live band there that was good
too. The ceremony was excellent, food great, etc. If I ever
get married one day, that's the kind of wedding I'd like to
have. It was outside at a Country Club and then inside for
dinner and the rest of the festivities. The drive there and
back was cool as Jen and I got to chat for a while. I don't
think I've ever met anyone quite as cool as her :)
I said goodbye to the CBR600RR. It's been a really good bike
for me but since I am done racing I just didn't have room
for it the garage anymore (really!). So I'll take the cash,
pay off some bills and then look forward to sometime next
year getting a CBR1000RR for the street and sell the Bandit.
I bought my tickets to Sebring this week. I'll be leaving
in the morning on the 20th (of this month) and staying for
around 10 days. It should be fun! We plan on lots of golf,
lots of hanging out and of course, lots of food! HAHA. I do
want to try and get some fishing in while I am there. I was
last home in June of 07 so it really hasn't been that long.
I got a fantastic price on the tickets and the car rental
(even got a full size car this time!) too.
still hammering away at the gym. So far, I've gotten very
close to my goal. Starting next week, in fact, I'll be working
out with a trainer. I've been meaning to do that for a long
time and the trainer I selected is one of the best. Certified
Master Trainer, even! Hopefully he can help me get past the
plateau that I am at now and hit the weight limit that I have
set. Shouldn't be that hard. If anything I am determined and
always stick to my goals until they are attained.
that is it for the week. Hope you had a great week as well
and we'll chat with you next week.